外围体育投注Hey all, My birthday is next week and I’ll be all on my own, in an entirely new country, without any friends or family and in isolation. I don’t know how to feel about it because I didn’t expect anything like this for my birthday this year. These are uncontrollable situations where it can’t be helped. How can I not feel alone because being in self isolation I am feeling more depressed and alone than ever?
Hello, new here.
Today sucks man. I feel so god damn alone. I push people away...to make myself feel like I’m not burdening them.
I hate how it makes me feel.
外围体育投注I have friends that really don’t give a shit about me, and it really hurts.
I have a girlfriend that is wonderful, but I can’t help but feel like I’m not there with her.
It hurts me to say this, but maybe me being alone is how life is supposed to work.
Life has really been putting me in a tough spot as of late. And honestly I’m not sure how to handle it all.
I’m sorry for this, but I had to put it somewhere. Thank you to any of you that read.
外围体育投注I took a precalc summer class and my final is today. Really nervous because I pretty much forgot everything about logarithms and whatever else I learned at the beginning of the month. Posting this here because I have no one else to talk to about it
Edit: Passed! Yay!
外围体育投注I always experience these times when I have something exciting i want to tell someone so bad that it’s just eating away at the inside of me, or that feeling when i realize it’s just me sitting there and everyone else is with someone. Or like every times I see a post and it’s something about one of my old high school buddies getting married or having their first kid or even just getting the dream job/girl.
外围体育投注I have none of these things. I only experience these things as an outside viewer. A spectator in a world I should be a part of. But genuinely when it comes down to it, people don’t want to listen to what I have to say, no one wants to take time to see what I’m up to or how I’m am, or even take the time to read a post I write. Because I am nothing to everyone. I think to myself all the time, “someday I’m going to be bones inside of a grave lifeless and alone and the only difference to right now is I won’t be alive to experience the loneliness”. What is this life I’m living? I have two friends that i consider close but I don’t think they feel the same. I have a family who seems to care but when it comes down to it they usually have better things to do than spend time with me. I have these things but at the same time I have nothing because as I said, it just feels like I’m spectating. On the sidelines watching as everyone and everything passes me by without a second glance.. why is that?
I feel like every week, I’m hit with such a major life setback and my support circle is shrinking. I’m realizing that I’m alone in this world and that I can’t rely on anyone to help/stand up for me.
I’m older so it’s not a “woe is me, I’m a teen@ thing. With this realization, what’s the point to any of this shit.